There's been so much difficult stuff happening in my life right now that it's been hard for me to get into the spirit of the season. Usually, I love this time of year. The excitement, the anticipation, family (at least some of them) coming home, the little ones... but this year, it's been a challenge to feel that same sense of peace and joy. Until today.
Today, I put on some holiday music and I finished a project I've been working on for my daughter. I'm happy with the way it turned out. Then I baked chocolate raspberry meringues and other goodies, packed up boxes for my daughter and son so they're ready to go out in the mail tomorrow. I wrapped gifts for the little ones. I turned on the tree lights.
And, for a little while, I found that happy place. I imagined the surprise and joy on the two of my childrens' faces when they open their packages. I will miss them, but am comfortable that they have their own lives to live, though far away. The other two will be here, as will other family. We will eat too much, laugh, play, and enjoy our time together.
Which is good.
With all the busyness coming up in the next couple of weeks, I don't know if I'll get back to the blog. If I don't, I'll take this time to wish you all a Merry Christmas. May you find that spot of peace and joy and love that will keep us going through the coming year.